Monday, April 25, 2011

The Dead...Don't mourn their Fate!


It was like 3.00am in the morn. I was reading the letter which said…
Dear Diana,
I Love you, trust me, I can never think a day without you, you are very important for me, 11 years is a long time to understand someone…I know I do, though you don’t want to understand me, please don’t say you don’t trust me, it really hurts, the girl you saw in the coffee shop was my sister, it’s true I never mentioned about her, but come back I will let you know the reason, you and our daughter Mary are a world for me. 
I can’t bear the thought of separation, why did you fight with me, you never gave a chance to explain, this was the only way I could speak to you, let you know how much you mean to me, this is just not a letter , it is me saying to you that don’t leave me alone in this world or I will be no more, I’m incomplete without you Diana, come back hold my hand, I will do as you say, I be as you want I will do anything to just make you smile , just be mine forever…just don’t go away…come back…. I also have booked the house of your dreams , and when you come back you'll will also have lots of surprises which will make you happy...please come back..its me on my knees I want you and Mary to be with me forever....
Love Richard ('m only yours my love')
There were tears in my eyes when I read this letter I decided to go back…
Flashback
I just packed my suitcase, told Mary to get ready and reached for the car keys it was 1.30am, I was pissed off with Richard, cos’ I thought he was having an affair, actually I did see him couple of times with another girl, and which wife in the world can ever bear a another women in her man’s life…I wanted to separate, Richard tried convincing me, I was not ready to listen, just pulled my suitcase from the staircase and rushed to my car, Mary... my beautiful daughter followed me…
Present
I have no idea when Richard slipped the letter in my purse… but the letter was really touching and honest, I decided to go back…speak to him and get things settled, I was just feeling guilty after reading the letter..when there where millions of things just running and juggling thru’ my mind I heard a crowd on the highway shouting for help I rushed to see what happened…it was a car accident, the car seemed quite known, the lady who was driving the car died on the spot and to my surprise she looked like me…my heart was beating faster…and I knew it was "ME" I did not want to believe it ...I saw Mary lying unconscious , I wanted to hold her, but no one could see me, I wanted to go back to my body, tell the crowd ‘m there, ‘m alive…no one could hear me…I’d lost it for my life…I could never go back, never say “Richard. I understand…’m sorry” My anger separated me from my loved ones… I was dead…helpless…and couldn’t mourn at my fate!

"Never be angry with your loved ones give them space, a chance to explain, or you might miss them for lifetime"

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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

NOT FOR SALE...Buried For Life!


Driving through dirty lanes, junky roads, isolated places, almost late evening…I was wondering where Gateway of India is …I asked “Uncle…Where are we going he just said – Aarti don’t worry you are safe, just trust me…” I had no option but to trust him, I was new in the city, suddenly the taxi stopped...my uncle told the driver to get down and told me that I just had to co-operate as he will change my life forever , I did not understand or realize what he was saying, but it was not to late when he started touching me, hugging me, his grip was just becoming more and uncomfortable for me, I tried to free myself, I shouted , I yelled but there was no one who could hear me, except the taxi driver who did not care , My uncle forced himself on me, pushed himself so hard on me that I lay half alive, but to my sudden shock I found the taxi driver tearing the tits and bits of me…my dreams were crushed and tattered …I lay there knowing I’m buried for life…

Aarti had come with her uncle for Mumbai Dharshan, and that to without informing her parents, she thought if she did, they won’t allow her and sees the darker side of life. There are ‘n’ numbers of innocent children like her, who are traded everyday for sexual purpose, raped and thrown on railway tracks, used to make blue films, top class child prostitution… A customer may negotiate an exchange directly with a child prostitute in order to receive sexual gratification, or through an intermediary (pimp) who controls or oversees the prostitute’s activities for profit. The provision of children for sexual purposes may also be an object of exchange between adults. Many children are prostituted over the Internet with the use of webcams to facilitate this abuse, and pornography may be linked to the prostitution. Children are often forced by social structures and individual agents into situations in which adults take advantage of their vulnerability and sexually exploit and abuse them.

Why??? Can we voice this??? I know we can’t completely stop it, but can we care that it does not happen to innocent children, atleast save one innocent child from the abuses and happenings, as it happens without predictions. It is so scary to think that an innocent child is being used for lure business.
Let’s join and save an Aarti from being “buried for life”

Children are God's messengers and never for sale! Let's voice for the assets of our nation "THEY ARE NOT FOR SALE"

End Child Prostitution, Child Pornography and Trafficking of Children for Sexual Purposes


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Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Will You KISS Me...


I had to choose between him and my mother what could I do…Just moved on…  Harry loved me like no one, we were two people and one life, I too loved him immensely, we decided to get married but my mother did not want me to marry Harry, she always said he loves only you not the “YOU” inside.

I tried convincing her a lot, but she was never happy about me and Harry being together, she used to completely ignore my talks about how much Harry means to me, everything was vain, I just couldn’t convince her enough. Harry wanted me to go against my mom and get married to him, to tell the truth even I felt the same, I thought once I get married to Harry, things will automatically change, my mom might realize how good a son-in-law Harry is…But somewhere I felt a pinch of going against her, I didn’t have a father, my dad passed away when I was quite young, my mom was the only guide, friend and family for me…

Harry and I started arguing on our marriage, every day we used to end up saying we better break-up if things continue the same and always make up the next day with a kiss on my forehead. I really loved him. Finally I decided to speak to my mother once and for all and even if she permits or not will get married to Harry, it was like 7.00 in the evening, I will never forget that evening my Mom was having coffee and reading a book, I sat in front of her and said “Mom, I’m getting married to Harry, I know you don’t like him, but I love him a lot, I can’t stay without him..so even if you say NO I will and want to spend the rest of my life with him” My mother had tears in her eyes, she said “I will be really happy if Harry and you are together, but there is something I want to share…”

I was confused, coz’ my mom was always against Harry, suddenly a change of mind…My mother continued…”I have hidden a fact from you, I’m HIV Positive, I came to know about this only a couple of months back, I did not want to scare you by sharing this truth about me, I always want you to be happy, I want you to settle with your love and live a happy life…”  Please go ahead and don’t share this scary truth with him… my mom was literally crying hard, I was in complete silence, I did not know what to say, or how to react suddenly this came like nowhere, I just went to my room…She came to my room and asked “Will you still love me..Will you still hug me…I did not wait to hear anymore, I hugged and kissed her cheeks, and I had tears in my eyes while she was still crying...

I met Harry I looked into his eyes and asked him how much he loves me…he just smiled and hugged me, I felt warm and comfort, I told him to kiss me, he kissed me and that was the most romantic kiss ever I can still feel that in my veins (smiles) , I knew... it will either be the last kiss or a forever one…I shared the truth about my mother…He was quite , he did not say a word but suddenly he was laughing and said so what … everything is fine Don’t worry!!! I was feeling relaxed that Harry has accepted the truth and still loves me…when I was weaving my thoughts he just said that he had to leave coz’ he had some meetings scheduled…
He was just walking away waving his hand...When I realized he did not kiss me “GOODBYE”...I called...Wait Harry "Will you not kiss me Goodbye…" He just smiled and rushed into his car...my eyes were moist…I got my answer….

I came home to my mom…Now I knew from within and was confident, that someday if I had to choose between my Mother and him….It will be my mom...I love you MOM!

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