Thursday, March 31, 2011

Friends or just more than friends!!!

What is love? It is a beautiful experience…a memorable event …a long lasting journey…lust to desire…melodious…and I can go on and on…. Adi (Aditya) is the name which changed my whole life , He is a part of every happiness in my life since I know him...

I was only 20,  when I first met Adi (Aditya) it was like the 13th of July! When I looked into his eyes I saw fireworks and when he looked back at me and smiled I knew it was love at first sight for both of us. We were doing our T.Y B.A and lived in the same neighborhood. I’ve loved him for what seems like forever. He asked me out in November and I said yes but there was one problem then, I didn’t love him with all my life but he liked me a lot. We lasted only 3 days because I being the stupid person that I dumped him. Cos’ I was scared, I knew my family won’t accept him but however in the weeks to follow we became really good friends. He would come over and chill at my house with me. We would sit outside at night and we would talk on the phone for hours and hours.


As the days passed by I began to like him more and more till finally I loved him so much I was going crazy (insane). He was the only person I talked about and my friends saw exactly where I was going. They knew I would eventually get the courage to ask Adi out, but they didn’t know when I would. They tried everything to stop me because they knew Adi very well as a person. Adi and I are completely two different people. Only thing we have in common is the close friendship that neither of us wanted to ruin. So we continued to be really good friends and by the end of the year everyone then knew what I was about to do. The whole bus ride home and the walk to our houses my friends tried so hard to convince that Adi wasn’t the one for me, except for one friend Pu (Puja), she thought Adi and I were meant for each other because of how well we got along and because of our close friendship , but everyone else had a different opinion. They told me I shouldn’t ask him out because he wasn’t my type. So I said well then if he’s not my type than who is? 
My Friends were speechless!


So that Friday night of May 31, 2010 I asked the love of my life out and he said yes. When he said the sky turned a different color blue and as the sunset I saw all the colors like I’ve never seen before. Now that we were a couple most of my friends thought we were going to last forever but that forever came to an end 2 weeks later. I don’t know why... it happens, I had never felt so sad and so crushed in my life.

I cried for days and days wishing every night that he would come back but he never did. I saw him the other day at the Bus stop he smiled at me and said Hi'. He pulled me off to the side and said “can’t we still be friends?  I was so close to him, I could feel his breath, that closeness was turning me on...but he still continued...



"Remember the friendship we had before all this and how close we were.... 
Do you remember the nights we sat outside and looked at the stars or when we would talk on the phone till 4 in the morning... 
Do you remember any of that? Because I do and honestly he said I miss those nights with you Archie..."


I didn't know what to say because I felt the same way. But I asked Adi... if all of what you just said  is true then why did you leave me? He was quite he just pulled me more closer ...looked into my eyes and kissed me...I was lost in his arms, I wanted the time to stop forever...he whispered he loved me...and hugged me ... I reached home a happy girl,  but I was still not clear whether we were friends or just more than friends!


That night we sat outside and watched the stars. I don’t know why but he held my hand and told me that he’ll always love me and maybe one day we’ll be back together but not now because we’re young yet and…   


I learned that love maybe too strong a word for us because it has a lot of meaning to it and some of us just don’t know how to use it and some of us do! I’ll always have a picture of Adi and I in my heart and thats where it’ll forever stay!
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