Royal Me’

At  5.30am the alarm rang , and I woke up wore my tracks and sportz shoes and went  for a jog,  it was very  chilled I dialled my friend shanny’s number, she said she’ll join me in 5 at joggers’s park , buzzed vinay(vinny) , he was already waiting for me with his silver colour Royal Enfield,  Woah! that was the only thing which wakes me up early... every morning, was desperate to learn riding a Royal Enfield, I used to lieto my  mom and go jogging to learn biking …naughty me!

Vinny and I waited for shanny, unfortunately she didn’t turn up that day, we started with our training session..I must tell I felt a “Queen” when I kicked started the bike and started it on the road…it was an amazing experience, vinny used to sit behind me to guide me…you won’t believe It took me one whole day to kick start the bike, when I initially started to get hands on it…But now it was an amazing feeling everytime I ride on it…I was not very good but confident when I sat on the Royal…I think Royal is the king of Bike’s….It gives a God like feeling every time I get on it…Forgive me GOD!

One day Vinny and I decided that I test my driving skills and ride the royal on the road , shanny warned us, but I was super excited and overheard her, just kicked started the Royal, vinny jumped on the bike with me and off we went on the road riding to joy…when suddenly there was huge truck in front of me…I was shit scared , instead of slowing down I changed the gear, I was too fast, lost control, the truck guy was drunk…and there just in seconds we slipped and slide off  the road, before the truck could take us on….I was hurt badly, both I and vinny were lucky that we did not crack any of our bone….Passer bys helped us getting back our breath to normal, even the drunken truck driver had stopped…courtesy :) , Nothing went wrong with the royal , except for the mirror (cracked)….

That day when I reached home… it was very difficult to face my mom… I’ll skip the home part….It was a very big episode....I decided not hide anything from momma...
But yes...Even today the memory of learning to ride a Royal Enfield is fresh in my mind ….I can still feel the Royal Me’

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Hello God…

Hello God…I’m Aneeshya , How are you?  I’m just 4 and half years old, I’m very sad, I see Mom and dad fight every day, I heard them saying last night that will part ways, does that mean, they will stay away from each other forever, If so…then I want you to help me , I don’t want my mom and dad to be separated…You know what God…Here’s a deal just say yes if you like…’mean how will u say yes…I never heard you talking…’m sure you are dumb…but you can always gimme a signal if you like my offer -like drop the flower on your head..Right on my hand and I will know you said ‘YES’

Now the deal is-
I will never cry and ask if I want something
I will listen to everything mom and dad say…
I will learn all my poems by heart (whispers  ...Only which I like)
I will never dirty (chee  ...chee.../pooh...poo) my knickers
I will not play in the mud and lick my palm to taste it , but if u like the taste of mud I can share it with u…sorry :)
I will not break my toys
I will talk to you everyday
Just imagine I will make u my best friend, share my milk and pudding with u...
I will also share my chocolate with u…
I will not hurt my neighbor’s dog by pulling his tail...
I will not eat chalk when no one is around...
I will not hide momma’s chappals…
I will not eat momma’s lipstick (tho’ it’s yum and tasty)
I will not do any kind of Drama while eating food…Will eat whatever is served
I will never put my finger in my nose in front of guest...
Will not be stubborn anymore…I will be a good girl...
Will not sleep during Rhyme class...
AAchooo….will not force daddy to play with me, when hez tired…
Will never hide my dad’s shoe lace or tie it as a necklace …
I will not prepare invisible food and tell momma to eat it…
I will not bite my cook…(I just hate her..Whispers)
I don’t want mom and dad to leave me …I want Dad to take me to school forever and Mom to love  me and make good pastries for me…

Aneeshya…just went on and on…her parents were listening to her conversation with God, they slowly kept the flower on her hand when her eyes were closed…they realized their mistake...


Never argue, abuse, or talk about separation in front of your child, care for your child and your child’s happiness…You are a world for your child!

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The Dead...Don't mourn their Fate!

It was like 3.00am in the morn. I was reading the letter which said…
Dear Diana,
I Love you, trust me, I can never think a day without you, you are very important for me, 11 years is a long time to understand someone…I know I do, though you don’t want to understand me, please don’t say you don’t trust me, it really hurts, the girl you saw in the coffee shop was my sister, it’s true I never mentioned about her, but come back I will let you know the reason, you and our daughter Mary are a world for me. 
I can’t bear the thought of separation, why did you fight with me, you never gave a chance to explain, this was the only way I could speak to you, let you know how much you mean to me, this is just not a letter , it is me saying to you that don’t leave me alone in this world or I will be no more, I’m incomplete without you Diana, come back hold my hand, I will do as you say, I be as you want I will do anything to just make you smile , just be mine forever…just don’t go away…come back…. I also have booked the house of your dreams , and when you come back you'll will also have lots of surprises which will make you happy...please come back..its me on my knees I want you and Mary to be with me forever....
Love Richard ('m only yours my love')
There were tears in my eyes when I read this letter I decided to go back…
Flashback
I just packed my suitcase, told Mary to get ready and reached for the car keys it was 1.30am, I was pissed off with Richard, cos’ I thought he was having an affair, actually I did see him couple of times with another girl, and which wife in the world can ever bear a another women in her man’s life…I wanted to separate, Richard tried convincing me, I was not ready to listen, just pulled my suitcase from the staircase and rushed to my car, Mary... my beautiful daughter followed me…
Present
I have no idea when Richard slipped the letter in my purse… but the letter was really touching and honest, I decided to go back…speak to him and get things settled, I was just feeling guilty after reading the letter..when there where millions of things just running and juggling thru’ my mind I heard a crowd on the highway shouting for help I rushed to see what happened…it was a car accident, the car seemed quite known, the lady who was driving the car died on the spot and to my surprise she looked like me…my heart was beating faster…and I knew it was "ME" I did not want to believe it ...I saw Mary lying unconscious , I wanted to hold her, but no one could see me, I wanted to go back to my body, tell the crowd ‘m there, ‘m alive…no one could hear me…I’d lost it for my life…I could never go back, never say “Richard. I understand…’m sorry” My anger separated me from my loved ones… I was dead…helpless…and couldn’t mourn at my fate!

"Never be angry with your loved ones give them space, a chance to explain, or you might miss them for lifetime"

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NOT FOR SALE...Buried For Life!

Driving through dirty lanes, junky roads, isolated places, almost late evening…I was wondering where Gateway of India is …I asked “Uncle…Where are we going he just said – Aarti don’t worry you are safe, just trust me…” I had no option but to trust him, I was new in the city, suddenly the taxi stopped...my uncle told the driver to get down and told me that I just had to co-operate as he will change my life forever , I did not understand or realize what he was saying, but it was not to late when he started touching me, hugging me, his grip was just becoming more and uncomfortable for me, I tried to free myself, I shouted , I yelled but there was no one who could hear me, except the taxi driver who did not care , My uncle forced himself on me, pushed himself so hard on me that I lay half alive, but to my sudden shock I found the taxi driver tearing the tits and bits of me…my dreams were crushed and tattered …I lay there knowing I’m buried for life…

Aarti had come with her uncle for Mumbai Dharshan, and that to without informing her parents, she thought if she did, they won’t allow her and sees the darker side of life. There are ‘n’ numbers of innocent children like her, who are traded everyday for sexual purpose, raped and thrown on railway tracks, used to make blue films, top class child prostitution… A customer may negotiate an exchange directly with a child prostitute in order to receive sexual gratification, or through an intermediary (pimp) who controls or oversees the prostitute’s activities for profit. The provision of children for sexual purposes may also be an object of exchange between adults. Many children are prostituted over the Internet with the use of webcams to facilitate this abuse, and pornography may be linked to the prostitution. Children are often forced by social structures and individual agents into situations in which adults take advantage of their vulnerability and sexually exploit and abuse them.

Why??? Can we voice this??? I know we can’t completely stop it, but can we care that it does not happen to innocent children, atleast save one innocent child from the abuses and happenings, as it happens without predictions. It is so scary to think that an innocent child is being used for lure business.
Let’s join and save an Aarti from being “buried for life”

Children are God's messengers and never for sale! Let's voice for the assets of our nation "THEY ARE NOT FOR SALE"

End Child Prostitution, Child Pornography and Trafficking of Children for Sexual Purposes

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Will You KISS Me...

I had to choose between him and my mother what could I do…Just moved on…  Harry loved me like no one, we were two people and one life, I too loved him immensely, we decided to get married but my mother did not want me to marry Harry, she always said he loves only you not the “YOU” inside.

I tried convincing her a lot, but she was never happy about me and Harry being together, she used to completely ignore my talks about how much Harry means to me, everything was vain, I just couldn’t convince her enough. Harry wanted me to go against my mom and get married to him, to tell the truth even I felt the same, I thought once I get married to Harry, things will automatically change, my mom might realize how good a son-in-law Harry is…But somewhere I felt a pinch of going against her, I didn’t have a father, my dad passed away when I was quite young, my mom was the only guide, friend and family for me…

Harry and I started arguing on our marriage, every day we used to end up saying we better break-up if things continue the same and always make up the next day with a kiss on my forehead. I really loved him. Finally I decided to speak to my mother once and for all and even if she permits or not will get married to Harry, it was like 7.00 in the evening, I will never forget that evening my Mom was having coffee and reading a book, I sat in front of her and said “Mom, I’m getting married to Harry, I know you don’t like him, but I love him a lot, I can’t stay without him..so even if you say NO I will and want to spend the rest of my life with him” My mother had tears in her eyes, she said “I will be really happy if Harry and you are together, but there is something I want to share…”

I was confused, coz’ my mom was always against Harry, suddenly a change of mind…My mother continued…”I have hidden a fact from you, I’m HIV Positive, I came to know about this only a couple of months back, I did not want to scare you by sharing this truth about me, I always want you to be happy, I want you to settle with your love and live a happy life…”  Please go ahead and don’t share this scary truth with him… my mom was literally crying hard, I was in complete silence, I did not know what to say, or how to react suddenly this came like nowhere, I just went to my room…She came to my room and asked “Will you still love me..Will you still hug me…I did not wait to hear anymore, I hugged and kissed her cheeks, and I had tears in my eyes while she was still crying...

I met Harry I looked into his eyes and asked him how much he loves me…he just smiled and hugged me, I felt warm and comfort, I told him to kiss me, he kissed me and that was the most romantic kiss ever I can still feel that in my veins (smiles) , I knew... it will either be the last kiss or a forever one…I shared the truth about my mother…He was quite , he did not say a word but suddenly he was laughing and said so what … everything is fine Don’t worry!!! I was feeling relaxed that Harry has accepted the truth and still loves me…when I was weaving my thoughts he just said that he had to leave coz’ he had some meetings scheduled…
He was just walking away waving his hand...When I realized he did not kiss me “GOODBYE”...I called...Wait Harry "Will you not kiss me Goodbye…" He just smiled and rushed into his car...my eyes were moist…I got my answer….

I came home to my mom…Now I knew from within and was confident, that someday if I had to choose between my Mother and him….It will be my mom...I love you MOM!

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Friends or just more than friends!!!

What is love? It is a beautiful experience…a memorable event …a long lasting journey…lust to desire…melodious…and I can go on and on…. Adi (Aditya) is the name which changed my whole life , He is a part of every happiness in my life since I know him...

I was only 20,  when I first met Adi (Aditya) it was like the 13th of July! When I looked into his eyes I saw fireworks and when he looked back at me and smiled I knew it was love at first sight for both of us. We were doing our T.Y B.A and lived in the same neighborhood. I’ve loved him for what seems like forever. He asked me out in November and I said yes but there was one problem then, I didn’t love him with all my life but he liked me a lot. We lasted only 3 days because I being the stupid person that I dumped him. Cos’ I was scared, I knew my family won’t accept him but however in the weeks to follow we became really good friends. He would come over and chill at my house with me. We would sit outside at night and we would talk on the phone for hours and hours.

As the days passed by I began to like him more and more till finally I loved him so much I was going crazy (insane). He was the only person I talked about and my friends saw exactly where I was going. They knew I would eventually get the courage to ask Adi out, but they didn’t know when I would. They tried everything to stop me because they knew Adi very well as a person. Adi and I are completely two different people. Only thing we have in common is the close friendship that neither of us wanted to ruin. So we continued to be really good friends and by the end of the year everyone then knew what I was about to do. The whole bus ride home and the walk to our houses my friends tried so hard to convince that Adi wasn’t the one for me, except for one friend Pu (Puja), she thought Adi and I were meant for each other because of how well we got along and because of our close friendship , but everyone else had a different opinion. They told me I shouldn’t ask him out because he wasn’t my type. So I said well then if he’s not my type than who is? My Friends were speechless!


So that Friday night of May 31, 2010 I asked the love of my life out and he said yes. When he said the sky turned a different color blue and as the sunset I saw all the colors like I’ve never seen before. Now that we were a couple most of my friends thought we were going to last forever but that forever came to an end 2 weeks later. I don’t know why... it happens, I had never felt so sad and so crushed in my life.

I cried for days and days wishing every night that he would come back but he never did. I saw him the other day at the Bus stop he smiled at me and said Hi'. He pulled me off to the side and said “can’t we still be friends?  I was so close to him, I could feel his breath, that closeness was turning me on...but he still continued...


"Remember the friendship we had before all this and how close we were.... 
Do you remember the nights we sat outside and looked at the stars or when we would talk on the phone till 4 in the morning... 
Do you remember any of that? Because I do and honestly he said I miss those nights with you Archie..."


I didn't know what to say because I felt the same way. But I asked Adi... if all of what you just said  is true then why did you leave me? He was quite he just pulled me more closer ...looked into my eyes and kissed me...I was lost in his arms, I wanted the time to stop forever...he whispered he loved me...and hugged me ... I reached home a happy girl,  but I was still not clear whether we were friends or just more than friends!


That night we sat outside and watched the stars. I don’t know why but he held my hand and told me that he’ll always love me and maybe one day we’ll be back together but not now because we’re young yet and…   


I learned that love maybe too strong a word for us because it has a lot of meaning to it and some of us just don’t know how to use it and some of us do! I’ll always have a picture of Adi and I in my heart and thats where it’ll forever stay!

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Be Mine, forever!

Your words, your eyes, your pranks,
Your touch, your smile and your love
Is all that means the most...

I’m blissfully happy in my dreams of you.
It’s the sweet way that you make me sigh
With pleasure and rapture, emotion and bliss,
Each time that you hold me, to give me a kiss.
There are reasons abound…

I know for a sure thing that I love the sound
Of your voice and your laugh, and I love your dear face,
No one else can ever take your place.
You’re a glow in my life, golden and bright.
I’m thankful for the happy ties that bind
Me to you...

The way your eyes smolder and hypnotize
Your touch–what delicious sensations when we’re……hmm!!!
Well...I’m crazy about you!

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