The first man in my life

Whenever I saw him I had a Twinkle in my eyes, I loved to be cuddled by him, I feel safe in his arms, he gives the comfort I want, he is a dream come true for me, his every touch is memorable and even without he saying I know he is always there for me. He is adorable, I really love him…
I still remember those days when he used to be awake at night cos’ I was not well, he never showed his tears to me, and he is one who taught me to be strong, He taught me how to drive, he encouraged me to overcome my fears, I must not miss telling, he is the first person to Kiss me…
I hold his hand and feel great and safe, I always feel like a winner with him by my side. I liked his dressing sense, I used  to imitate him when on computer, I liked the way he watched cricket and got excited, when he wears his specs, awe' he  gives a tough time to all the heroes in the world. I know he is the best man in my life.

I grew up knowing his experiences , the bed time stories he shared were always inspirational, I can still see his face bright with a wrinkle or two, but he is as awesome as he is... always for me.



I love you DAD, I respect you for all you are, you are the first ever man in Life and I’m proud of you.
Thank You God, I'm blessed with this Man in my Life :)

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The Dead...Don't mourn their Fate!

It was like 3.00am in the morn. I was reading the letter which said…
Dear Diana,
I Love you, trust me, I can never think a day without you, you are very important for me, 11 years is a long time to understand someone…I know I do, though you don’t want to understand me, please don’t say you don’t trust me, it really hurts, the girl you saw in the coffee shop was my sister, it’s true I never mentioned about her, but come back I will let you know the reason, you and our daughter Mary are a world for me. 
I can’t bear the thought of separation, why did you fight with me, you never gave a chance to explain, this was the only way I could speak to you, let you know how much you mean to me, this is just not a letter , it is me saying to you that don’t leave me alone in this world or I will be no more, I’m incomplete without you Diana, come back hold my hand, I will do as you say, I be as you want I will do anything to just make you smile , just be mine forever…just don’t go away…come back…. I also have booked the house of your dreams , and when you come back you'll will also have lots of surprises which will make you happy...please come back..its me on my knees I want you and Mary to be with me forever....
Love Richard ('m only yours my love')
There were tears in my eyes when I read this letter I decided to go back…
Flashback
I just packed my suitcase, told Mary to get ready and reached for the car keys it was 1.30am, I was pissed off with Richard, cos’ I thought he was having an affair, actually I did see him couple of times with another girl, and which wife in the world can ever bear a another women in her man’s life…I wanted to separate, Richard tried convincing me, I was not ready to listen, just pulled my suitcase from the staircase and rushed to my car, Mary... my beautiful daughter followed me…
Present
I have no idea when Richard slipped the letter in my purse… but the letter was really touching and honest, I decided to go back…speak to him and get things settled, I was just feeling guilty after reading the letter..when there where millions of things just running and juggling thru’ my mind I heard a crowd on the highway shouting for help I rushed to see what happened…it was a car accident, the car seemed quite known, the lady who was driving the car died on the spot and to my surprise she looked like me…my heart was beating faster…and I knew it was "ME" I did not want to believe it ...I saw Mary lying unconscious , I wanted to hold her, but no one could see me, I wanted to go back to my body, tell the crowd ‘m there, ‘m alive…no one could hear me…I’d lost it for my life…I could never go back, never say “Richard. I understand…’m sorry” My anger separated me from my loved ones… I was dead…helpless…and couldn’t mourn at my fate!

"Never be angry with your loved ones give them space, a chance to explain, or you might miss them for lifetime"

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Will You KISS Me...

I had to choose between him and my mother what could I do…Just moved on…  Harry loved me like no one, we were two people and one life, I too loved him immensely, we decided to get married but my mother did not want me to marry Harry, she always said he loves only you not the “YOU” inside.

I tried convincing her a lot, but she was never happy about me and Harry being together, she used to completely ignore my talks about how much Harry means to me, everything was vain, I just couldn’t convince her enough. Harry wanted me to go against my mom and get married to him, to tell the truth even I felt the same, I thought once I get married to Harry, things will automatically change, my mom might realize how good a son-in-law Harry is…But somewhere I felt a pinch of going against her, I didn’t have a father, my dad passed away when I was quite young, my mom was the only guide, friend and family for me…

Harry and I started arguing on our marriage, every day we used to end up saying we better break-up if things continue the same and always make up the next day with a kiss on my forehead. I really loved him. Finally I decided to speak to my mother once and for all and even if she permits or not will get married to Harry, it was like 7.00 in the evening, I will never forget that evening my Mom was having coffee and reading a book, I sat in front of her and said “Mom, I’m getting married to Harry, I know you don’t like him, but I love him a lot, I can’t stay without him..so even if you say NO I will and want to spend the rest of my life with him” My mother had tears in her eyes, she said “I will be really happy if Harry and you are together, but there is something I want to share…”

I was confused, coz’ my mom was always against Harry, suddenly a change of mind…My mother continued…”I have hidden a fact from you, I’m HIV Positive, I came to know about this only a couple of months back, I did not want to scare you by sharing this truth about me, I always want you to be happy, I want you to settle with your love and live a happy life…”  Please go ahead and don’t share this scary truth with him… my mom was literally crying hard, I was in complete silence, I did not know what to say, or how to react suddenly this came like nowhere, I just went to my room…She came to my room and asked “Will you still love me..Will you still hug me…I did not wait to hear anymore, I hugged and kissed her cheeks, and I had tears in my eyes while she was still crying...

I met Harry I looked into his eyes and asked him how much he loves me…he just smiled and hugged me, I felt warm and comfort, I told him to kiss me, he kissed me and that was the most romantic kiss ever I can still feel that in my veins (smiles) , I knew... it will either be the last kiss or a forever one…I shared the truth about my mother…He was quite , he did not say a word but suddenly he was laughing and said so what … everything is fine Don’t worry!!! I was feeling relaxed that Harry has accepted the truth and still loves me…when I was weaving my thoughts he just said that he had to leave coz’ he had some meetings scheduled…
He was just walking away waving his hand...When I realized he did not kiss me “GOODBYE”...I called...Wait Harry "Will you not kiss me Goodbye…" He just smiled and rushed into his car...my eyes were moist…I got my answer….

I came home to my mom…Now I knew from within and was confident, that someday if I had to choose between my Mother and him….It will be my mom...I love you MOM!

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Friends or just more than friends!!!

What is love? It is a beautiful experience…a memorable event …a long lasting journey…lust to desire…melodious…and I can go on and on…. Adi (Aditya) is the name which changed my whole life , He is a part of every happiness in my life since I know him...

I was only 20,  when I first met Adi (Aditya) it was like the 13th of July! When I looked into his eyes I saw fireworks and when he looked back at me and smiled I knew it was love at first sight for both of us. We were doing our T.Y B.A and lived in the same neighborhood. I’ve loved him for what seems like forever. He asked me out in November and I said yes but there was one problem then, I didn’t love him with all my life but he liked me a lot. We lasted only 3 days because I being the stupid person that I dumped him. Cos’ I was scared, I knew my family won’t accept him but however in the weeks to follow we became really good friends. He would come over and chill at my house with me. We would sit outside at night and we would talk on the phone for hours and hours.

As the days passed by I began to like him more and more till finally I loved him so much I was going crazy (insane). He was the only person I talked about and my friends saw exactly where I was going. They knew I would eventually get the courage to ask Adi out, but they didn’t know when I would. They tried everything to stop me because they knew Adi very well as a person. Adi and I are completely two different people. Only thing we have in common is the close friendship that neither of us wanted to ruin. So we continued to be really good friends and by the end of the year everyone then knew what I was about to do. The whole bus ride home and the walk to our houses my friends tried so hard to convince that Adi wasn’t the one for me, except for one friend Pu (Puja), she thought Adi and I were meant for each other because of how well we got along and because of our close friendship , but everyone else had a different opinion. They told me I shouldn’t ask him out because he wasn’t my type. So I said well then if he’s not my type than who is? My Friends were speechless!


So that Friday night of May 31, 2010 I asked the love of my life out and he said yes. When he said the sky turned a different color blue and as the sunset I saw all the colors like I’ve never seen before. Now that we were a couple most of my friends thought we were going to last forever but that forever came to an end 2 weeks later. I don’t know why... it happens, I had never felt so sad and so crushed in my life.

I cried for days and days wishing every night that he would come back but he never did. I saw him the other day at the Bus stop he smiled at me and said Hi'. He pulled me off to the side and said “can’t we still be friends?  I was so close to him, I could feel his breath, that closeness was turning me on...but he still continued...


"Remember the friendship we had before all this and how close we were.... 
Do you remember the nights we sat outside and looked at the stars or when we would talk on the phone till 4 in the morning... 
Do you remember any of that? Because I do and honestly he said I miss those nights with you Archie..."


I didn't know what to say because I felt the same way. But I asked Adi... if all of what you just said  is true then why did you leave me? He was quite he just pulled me more closer ...looked into my eyes and kissed me...I was lost in his arms, I wanted the time to stop forever...he whispered he loved me...and hugged me ... I reached home a happy girl,  but I was still not clear whether we were friends or just more than friends!


That night we sat outside and watched the stars. I don’t know why but he held my hand and told me that he’ll always love me and maybe one day we’ll be back together but not now because we’re young yet and…   


I learned that love maybe too strong a word for us because it has a lot of meaning to it and some of us just don’t know how to use it and some of us do! I’ll always have a picture of Adi and I in my heart and thats where it’ll forever stay!

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Be Mine, forever!

Your words, your eyes, your pranks,
Your touch, your smile and your love
Is all that means the most...

I’m blissfully happy in my dreams of you.
It’s the sweet way that you make me sigh
With pleasure and rapture, emotion and bliss,
Each time that you hold me, to give me a kiss.
There are reasons abound…

I know for a sure thing that I love the sound
Of your voice and your laugh, and I love your dear face,
No one else can ever take your place.
You’re a glow in my life, golden and bright.
I’m thankful for the happy ties that bind
Me to you...

The way your eyes smolder and hypnotize
Your touch–what delicious sensations when we’re……hmm!!!
Well...I’m crazy about you!

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Will you have coffee with me?

Alen was a 19 years old, staying with his mother, loved his Bicycle, his dog, his paint brush and his beautiful room, he wanted to live every moment of his life as he had very less of it, yes …you are guessing it right he had leukemia (cancer) and was not curable, but despite of his sickness he was never sad he did not fear death, full of life and cheerful, that was just amazing about this guy.

Right in front of Alen’s house there was a Book & Music CD shop, he used to sit by his window and watch passer bys, children going to school and sketch them…One day when he was sketching near his window suddenly a beautiful face caught his attention, his eyes were engaged with the innocence and cuteness of this beauty, he wanted to go and meet her know who she is, talk to her, paint her, it was almost evening , he saw her take a bus and leave.

That night he couldn’t sleep at all, his dreams were crowded with beautiful thoughts of the lady, and he wanted to be lost in it forever.  Next day he visited the shop and saw she was a sales assistant in the shop. Her name was Stacy.  He said he had come to buy some good music CD and books on love stories. She suggested a few, whatever she said sounded like a beautiful music, Alen was madly in love, he went there every day to buy a Book /CD … He told his mother about it, his mother said “why don’t you ask her out one day?”

He decided he will do that- gathered all his courage and asked “Beautiful lady, Will you have Coffee with me?  Stacy just smiled and packed the book he asked for. Every day from then Alen would ask her out for a coffee, but she just smiled and said nothing…few weeks later Alen passed away, his mother cried inconsolably, all she had was her son and she lost him forever …

Days passed Stacy wondered why Alen doesn’t come to meet her in the shop, one day she decided to check.  She went to his house, Alen’s mother was not sure of who she was, when she introduced herself, Alen’s mother had tears in her eyes, she said …”So you are stacy , Alen loved you so much, he just asked you out for a coffee every day, but you denied , how can you be so heartless, he passed away with this wish in his heart”  Stacy left the house with tears in her eyes.

Half a month after Alen’s death, his mother decided to shift to a new place , she was cleaning Alen’s cupboard , She saw books which were unopened, the CD’s were sealed she opened one of them a small chit fell on the floor, she picked it up..It read “Hi’ ‘m stacy, Will you have coffee with me…?"
Alen’s mother was shocked to read it, she opened all the books and CD to find that each had a chit which read “Alen..I will”, “Alen…I Love you” …. Alen’s mother went to the book shop immediately and there she was informed that Stacy could not survive an accident and she was no more…

The Coffee is still waiting, but the people who wanted to have it are no more…
Love makes no sound!

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Happily married….and ???

 “Marriages are made in heaven.”

I always kept dreaming, “A handsome prince will drive me through a luxurious life.” This is what every girl thinks and the same was with Henna. Henna was from a middle class family (Delhi based), happy and excited about the smallest thing in life, life was a roller coaster ride for her , average in studies , a very good painter, her paintings used to always the resemble the person she was.

She made lot of friends, they all used to love and care for her, who will not love a person who is full of talent and fun to be with.

Her mother was a housewife, Father a government servant, brother an MBA. As usual her parents were worried about her future, the worrying starts since the day a girl  is born, when henna was 19 she started getting marriage proposals , and she was desperately waiting for prince charming , finally one proposal clicked, it was a rich family (from Marwar) ,Akshar – the boy was very handsome, it was love at first sight for Henna, she was madly in love with Akshar, they were engaged and the marriage was supposed to take place 3 months after engagement… All this was a dream come true for Henna.

Henna’s father was tensed, as he did not have enough source to arrange finance for her wedding. Cos' there were more demands than expected , Finally he decided to sell his only property his house…He did not mention about it at home. He requested the new owner of the property to let him stay on rent for four months.

The Marriage Day-
Friends, Relatives …everyone attended the wedding, it was a lavish celebration, a day to remember, Henna was in seventh heaven! She just couldn’t take her eyes off akshar.

The First Night-
WOW! This night is full of hopes, excitement and ‘of course n everlasting wish in life.
However it was not the case with henna, as she entered the room, she was the bed was decorated with roses and there was a young lady waiting for her in the room….Whos’ She? This was the first thing which came into mind….
Let’s cut the story short …'m mean you have to suggest the rest :)

What do you think, who’s that young lady??
Sister –in-law, First Wife, Girlfriend, Secretary, Vamp …that’s what you and me are thinking – We all are influenced by T.V. serials, not only in reel life but also in real life , we are implementing the same thoughts, may what the situation or circumstances are.

We have forgotten and lost the charm of first love, sacred marriage, union of two hearts, this all are mere poetic words for us. Marriages are made in heaven; often this has been written and spoken. But how many people really understand what it means?

Today, Marriage is like a short term business plan; definition of marriage has depreciated and reduced to a mere contract for legalized union of bodies, an arrangement for legally satisfying our lust and not our dream. There is no dream partner or dream life with the partner anymore. Two people fall in love, get married and realize that they have committed a big mistake in life.

Divorce is increasing among young newly wedded couples. Relationship between two people moves faster than light…

It is not the “HE” or “SHE” to be blame; both are equally responsible and influenced.

Let’s put an effort to nurture a relationship, which will be long and everlasting. Make an attempt to try and prevent this degradation of definition of marriage and use marriage as a relationship for evolution of universal love, rather , than as a short term relationship tool to fulfill our thirst for lust. I am sure there would be no divorces, no more unhappily married couple, and no marital affairs – when we start seeing our partner (husband /wives) in a larger role.

We all want a happy ending…somewhere we all want to see henna happy, it is your pure and beautiful thought about a relationship which will complete this story.

Married and lived happily everafter!

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My First Love...

I don’t really know how to explain this. But this is especially true for me. The first person in my life- who I love immensely is… very special and deserves life’s best.

My first love- “My Mother “She is the most beautiful creation on earth. My mother is an extraordinary woman and also the most important woman in my life. She is the most fascinating woman I have ever known. Writing about her is new territory for me. She has a big impact on my life. In many ways, writing about her makes me understand myself even better.

When I was just a kid, I used to smear my face with my mama’s lipstick and model her earrings and high heels, wanting to be just like her. I used to run around the house draping her sari and literally tearing it sometime…, she helped me in my studies, spanked me when I was wrong (I miss those spanking’s today)…Hmm…@?//* Memories worth treasuring!

Today… she is my best friend and guide, she’s my Goddess of inspiration- I worship her.Everything that my mother has ever done has been overshadowed by the thought behind it. While the raw experiences I have had at home have been spectacular, I have learned to truly value them by watching my mother. She has enriched my life with her passion for learning and writing, and changed it with her devotion to humanity.

My mother’s accomplishments have meant a lot to me. I hope to inherit her virtues and follow her footsteps in order to make her proud. My achievements will be a tribute of love to her.“My mother” – for me is the most and only beautiful women on earth.
Mom you are and will always be the everlasting, precious and worthy relative in my life.
Mom …I Love You!

“A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.” – Washington Irvin Quotes

I'm sure... after reading this you would want to share a world about your First Love :)

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